Monthly Goals 2021 | Many things happened in the past month, from March to April. Something surprising and something I am grateful for it. Yes, I admit that I have left this blog unattended. I have trouble managing my time lately. And most of my time on work and drama in my free time. I do have some ideas to create as an entry. But it got stuck when I tried to put it as a draft. So, based on ideas that I have looked for on the Pinterest app is monthly goals.

I choose monthly goals ideas because I want to focus on my short term goals. I do have a lot of goals and dreams to accomplish. However, I want to focus on these five goals for this year. There are many reasons that each goal hide and I want to achieve it slowly day by day. I know I still struggle to start it right now due to a lack of self-discipline. But I want to show to my own that I can do it. I can accomplish it.

The first goal that I am trying right now is a healthy lifestyle habit. I have tried many supplements and items that I  think I believe can lose some weight. Why lose weight? Since my body weight is not ideal, I am having trouble with my knee and my stamina. There are 4 types of body shape that I learned is hourglass-shaped, rectangle-shaped, pear-shaped and apple-shaped. I belong to the pear-shaped category. Pear-shaped is where most of the body fat in between the stomach, the hip and the thighs. Because of that body fat at my body, my smaller knee and calf cannot accommodate my weight. I always got knee pain after a long walk or a simple workout.

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Due to the reasons for the first goal, I take an oath to lose weight 5 to 10kg as my second goal. Before I tell more about what I have done to accomplish this first two goals. I want to be honest about my weight since the first month of 2021. Like I told you guys before in Preparation for Weight Loss Journey entry. I eat a lot since I attend every banquet or feast that being held at school. So, my started weight for the year 2021 is 82kg. My ideal weight to get my body mass index (BMI) normal is 65kg. I have decided to join a weight loss program in February.

In this program, I learned calorie deficit, magic hands and more knowledge about our body. We are provided with a meal plan schedule and nutrition kit. As a starter, it might be difficult to control your craving suddenly. But I never regret joining this program because I have fun eating 5 meals per day with a group support. The menu is very delicious and good for your body. The result after the program are very satisfying. From 82kg in January. My current weight after consuming the nutrition and correct food portion is 74kg. I am so grateful for it. And I still in the program to reshape my body for healthy purposes. So, I hope I can achieve these two goals before 2021 ends.

Let's continue to the next goal. I want to be more organized person. I am not a messy person but sometimes I make things messed up. Let's say my room is a bit messy, so I clean it up and make it tidy. After a few days, my room is messy again with boxes, books and stationeries. So, I decided to do some makeover to my bedroom. I want it to be more organized and tidy especially with the small stuff. 

My makeover plan will be started after having a desk, a chair and a bookshelf. My room is not quite small and not quite big. Right now, I have a queen bed, two cupboards and a bookshelf. One cupboard filled with my mom items such as a comforter and luggage. One side of it is filled with my clothes. Another cupboard  filled with my dress and baju kurung plus full of boxes. Boxes again? Yup, boxes. A bookshelf is full of books of course in the first and last shelf. My cosmetic products in the second shelf and Nurraysa stock on the third shelf. I want to separate my Nurraysa stock to another new bookshelf so I can put my AWB printer, parcels and stickers in it. 

Then, I want to buy a desk and a chair to make up my fourth goal, a mini home office. As an online seller and a part-time blogger, I prefer to do my work on a desk rather than a bed. <--- Of course, I fall asleep after that. I want to put my laptop and its accessories on a desk, so I can do the typing right away. I don't have to set up a table anymore and sitting on the floor like right now until my back is pain. I also can produce more ideas for my blog and make a draft right away. When having a comfortable position to do work or blog post, our mind is in a good state to think and create a better entry. Besides, I want to put all my stationary on the desk, so I can jot down important things on paper. For making these goals coming true. I, Mardhiyyah will try my best in work and try to make my last goal main sources to make other goals a success.

What is the last goal? The goal that people like me having a problem achieving. What it is? Savings money. For now, I start to aim for small amounts of money to be saved so I can accomplish my other goals. My minimum target for this year is RM1000. Why? You know I always said to others that I am not kaki shopping. I don't like to shop for a quite long time. I always take 30 minutes to an hour to buy groceries. However, since I got addicted to online shopping  2 years ago. *long sigh* I have spent a lot on wanted and miscellaneous items. And yeah. I regret it after making a long calculation. Huhu. What a waste.

Then, I start to make a change slowly by separating accounts for personal, business and savings. And promise myself don't touch any money in business and savings account for my own good. For my future. It started with a positive mindset and my BIG WHY to achieve it. I know sometimes, when you are in a desperate moment you don't want to ask for help from parents or siblings. You want to use your own money. Because it is for you. You want to be independent. You are the one that wants to help people. To help people in need. Because you've been there. So, these five goals that I want to commit to this whole year. A healthy lifestyle habit, loss of weight, be organized, a mini home office and savings RM 1K is a starter in achieving my dreams.

I hope every step that I take give me a positive reason to make up for the future. I know I am still at the beginner level. But I want to take the action NOW! I don't want to regret it later. So, wish me luck in succeeding in these monthly goals. I hope your goals and dreams are being accomplished day by day. Thank you so much for reading.

Love ya,
Mardhiyyah Rosli

Wishing for Staycation at Singapore | Hi Assalamualaikum. Today I would like to talk about staycation. Most of us must be missing traveling right. Because of the situation we had nowadays, we are restricted from traveling and have to postpone whatever plan we have. As of right now, we can’t go anywhere. Stuck within our district and cannot cross between states. How I envy our neighbouring country, Singapore. They can travel within their country and here I want to give a suggestion to our neighbour, Singaporean to relax and have fun holidays by having staycation in their own country.

What is a staycation? According to Oxford Languages, staycation is a holiday spent in one’s home country rather than abroad, or one spent at home and involving day trips to local attractions. What are the benefits of staycation? There are many benefits of staycation such as time saving and easy on the wallet, no planning required, more quality time with loved ones and rediscovering your own city. What I mean by time saving and easy on the wallet is we can save our time and cost more than we do a vacation. We spend a lot of money on flight tickets, transportation and accommodation especially when we travel abroad that takes hours to arrive. 

Staycation will make you an expert in your own country. You can decide either to stay in your house and make a lot of memorable activities together with your family. Or find an affordable accommodation to spend your time with your loved ones. You can do a lot of activities with your family at your favourite place. I guess everyone has a signature place where you and your family love to spend time together. Because I do. My father always brings us to a family restaurant to have lunch or dinner when we have free time. It feels great because we can bond our relationships deeper. But if your favourite activities are bringing your families to vacation or staying in a proper accommodation, Just pick a hotel near your favourite place and there you go. Hehe.

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I know a few famous landmarks in Singapore. One of the popular landmarks is Merlion Park. One of the benefits of staycation is we can rediscover our country and learn about the history of landmarks itself. So, Merlion is a mythical creature that’s half fish and half lion. The Merlion combines two elements of Singapore’s identity. Its body symbolises the fishing villages of Singapore’s past. While its lion head is a symbol of Singapura. It's become one of the attractions for tourists to come by at Merlion Park. 

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Singapore is also famous for its physical attraction themed park, Universal Studio Singapore (USS). There are 24 attractions in this park that consists of 7 different themed zones. Each one of the themed zones has its own unique features that attracts people from different ages including me. The seven themed zones are Hollywood, New York, Sci-Fi City, Ancient Egypt, The Lost World, Far Far Away and Madagascar. Because I am a fan of cartoons and anime, I will choose Far Far Away. I live my childhood memories by watching Shrek and their friends. I also love seeing Madagascar, unfortunately this themed zone will be closed. But you guys don’t have to worry because there is more additional themed zone that will be replacing Madagascar. You want to know? Ba na na, Bananana. It’s a Minion (2021) and Super Nintendo World (2025). 

If you are planning to come and have fun at Universal Studio Singapore, I suggest checking out Hotel 81 Dickson. Hotel 81 Dickson is near to Universal Studio Singapore with a lot of facilities including public transportation, MRT. This hotel serves a 24 hour front desk and security. Besides, you can find a supermarket, salon, ATM, gift shops and laundry in the hotel. You also can express check-in and check-out if you are in a hurry. This hotel is a disabled access friendly and has free WIFI. There is also accessible halal food and mosque for Muslim people nearby. There are two rooms provided in here; Standard Double and Superior Double. 

I hope you guys in Singapore are having a great and wonderful staycation. Take a lot of pictures and make it a memorable one. Wish me to arrive in Singapore soon. So, lots of LOVE. Have fun.

Mya Rosli

Credit to: Visit Singapore 

PREPARATION FOR WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY | Hi, Assalamualaikum. Like I promise yesterday, I am going to continue the preparation for weight loss. Where are we? Last year was a difficult year for all of us. Pandemic Covid-19 hit us badly. So, I am going to tell you what happened to my journey from the beginning of January. In the beginning, I didn't focus on any exercise due to family reasons. After that, I slowly learned how to control my food intake. I started to learn control food portion by using a quarter, a quarter and half diet. I will tell more about this kind of diet later. By the way, I am not consistent in this food control. Still struggling.

I can control the food portion when I am working. But when I got home, the effort becomes worthless. Especially when you are cooking for your siblings. Actually, I do not remember much about what happened in 2020. Because that year-end too fast like nothing was accomplished. Still, I did a few events together with seniors and same batch colleague. I did a food event with my seniors at Seoul Garden, Putrajaya in the middle of February. And my final program, Program Transformasi Minda at the end of February. 

The main reason that I want to lose weight is someone saying that I look like a pregnant woman. That really offended me so much. That I felt, how could she be? You don't know how I struggle to hide my belly fat. I know I look fat here in this tummy but she doesn't have to say that. From that moment, I have tried exercising, buying shapewear and even try to take supplements. I am stressing out because of it. It sucks. 

But when I really try to support myself in doing this kind of journey. People around me that have been together for all of those years mocked my efforts. It's not easy to shut people out of your mind especially when someone that close to you. So, I started again to do beginner workout and control my food intake. Yeah, there is a progress that my weight is losing a bit. Until our country was hit by pandemic Covid-19 in March 2020. 

On that middle of March, our country decides to do a Movement Control Order to prevent the pandemic cases increasing. For the first week, I still maintained the workout routine every day until laziness overwhelmed me. Living in MCO with your parents make you eat a lot. Especially when my mother makes my favourite Sambal Sotong and Ayam Masak Merah. I missed her food right now. So, my weight journey stuck until Conditional Movement Control Order (CMCO) on May 2020.

I was told by my boss to start work on the first day of CMCO. But due to the decrease in the probability of cases. We as the high school staff need to take turns started on 4th May. From that moment I start to read tips in controlling food portion again. And doing basic workout such as squats 20 times every day. Yes, I admitted once you are gaining, it's hard to lose. 

After that, a lot of things happened. I can eat rice accordingly to the food portion. But I have trouble to swallow green veggies especially spinach and mustard greens. The half portion of veggies is unacceptable for me. The only veggies I love to eat is carrot, tomato, capsicum, cabbage and cauliflower. Quite a picky eater on veggies. Besides, I more prefer to eat berries, banana, watermelon, honeydew and other fruits. For the protein, I really like chicken more than fish. I am trying to eat chicken breast as a staple food. 

There are many factors that I really want to lose some weight. Because of my health issues, my bones can't accommodate any more. I got a knee problem and backache. Besides, my skin also affected when I eat many sweet things and dairy foods. So, I need to start taking care of my food right now. And drinks a lot of plain water.

So, I am making scheduled again for my weight loss journey in 2021. I hope everything going smooth. No more sweet food except on cheat day. I want to be healthy and free-disease. Normal BMI here I come. I will tell it more about the progress later. That's all.

Thank you for reading. 

A GRATEFUL MOMENT IN MY LIFE | Hi, Assalamualaikum. In everyday life, we have various moments that are meant to keep or to throw it away. We go through all of the moments since we were born to this world. There are many emotions that we can express for the whole life that we have been lived such as happiness, sadness, madness, grateful, hates, loves and many more. So, today I am so grateful to be born in this world.

Thank you to the Almighty, Allah for giving me a life to perform the duties and learn to love myself better. I am grateful for every rezeki that I get from Allah. I know that Allah gives me this life test to make me always remember Him. Not just that, Allah forgive us for every sin we do by repentance. But it doesn't mean we can do it just for fun. Ya Allah, on this beautiful day I beg you to instil some courage in myself to become a better solehah person. I want to become a better person, especially when doing the compulsory duties. Aamin.

Furthermore, I want to say thank you to both of my parents for bringing me up for 28 years with full of love. They bear to my stubborn and childish character until today. I am very grateful for having my mother and my father as my parents. They taught me everything they could. They tried their best to make sure that I am going to be a good person. Even though I am not. Still trying to be a better person. They give me a lot of love since I was a baby. Not just that, they even give me motivation when I was depressed due to my study.  They always support my back when I fall down. So, I love my parents so much. Saranghae <3

Today date is a memorable event for me. I reported myself on my current job on 15th January 2019. It was my good memory, not just because I got a job. But it also a day I am getting to a good environment of the workplace. Through this current job, I learn many hardships that I struggled a bit. The thing is I start to create this entry because today is my birthday. Happy Birthday, Mardhiyyah Rosli. I pray to be a better person with positive thinking. I want to correct my mistakes in the past by doing better in the present. I hope no more negatives vibes surround me because it hurts. I want to be free and be more productive for myself. So, I love myself so much that I am going to focus on me from this moment. That's all.

Just a reminder. Every year our age turns old, but we can make our life feeling new.  By thinking positive and love yourself first. After that, you can start to commit love for other people. Just be yourself and you good to go.

Thank you for reading.

Lots of Love,
Mardhiyyah Rosli

PREPARATION FOR WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY | Hi, Assalamualaikum. We meet again. I want to talk about a little bit of introduction on why I want to lose some weight. Actually, after a long of hiatus and a temporary lockdown that happened to Malaysia started March 2020. A lot of things changed including my weight. People always labelled me as someone that will never gain weight even though I ate a lot of food. Besides, maybe my physical appearance didn't show that I am gaining a few kilograms after eating. I love to eat chickens and sweet things especially chocolates. But that was when I was still a teenager. Where body metabolism still higher. 

I started gaining weight after I have a job. When you learn that you have money to buy foods that you love so much. Not just that, your company always make food banquet every time we had celebrations. But at the same time, I didn't feel the difference in weight because of my job scope as a sales assistant. An assistant that going around in the kids' department. I have to handle many stocks and treats customer that come by. So, the body process balances because of my active movements. That's before I got an offer letter to work in a government. 

Now, I have worked in high school as a lab assistant for 2 years already. Many unexpected things happened here. When I was reported myself in the first year of 2019, the teachers are kind and friendly especially when inviting you to a food banquet. I can't count how many times these school teachers hold food banquets. The banquets that been hold was supposed to celebrate occasions such as Teachers Day, Chinese New Year, Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Farewell Event and for fun. 

But even worse, my weight starts to gain drastically every time school holidays appear. Why? To save the costs of spending money on outside foods. My seniors have decided to cooks at schools. Cooks homemade food. How I missed my mom badly when eating homemade foods. They have planned the menu for every day of the school holidays. But if the menu got hold because of certain issues. They will put the menu list in the cart like a shopping cart. Many foods still on the queue until now. So, I try to put on my little old clothes. Oh nooo. I can't fit in anymore. Long sigh.

Because of that, I started to find a way to lose some weight. At least to get normal BMI. I bought a yoga mat, a set of the resistance band, workout gloves and a digital weighing scales. Moreover, I subscribed a healthy fitness application on the iPad to give me motivations in losing weight. Hahaha. However, I am a lone ranger. Where my motivation easily comes and go. By the end of 2019, I list my resolutions that I want to commit in 2020. I have the list of resolutions right here. So, what happened in the year 2020? I'll continue this story in the next part.

Thank you for reading. <3

Lots of Love,
Mardhiyyah Rosli

TWENTY-TWENTYONE RESOLUTIONS | Hi. Assalamualaikum. Long time no see. Since the last post, I got a little busy with work. And struggling to manage time correctly with the situations that our country is facing currently. Due to other factors also, I am trying my best in this new year to up my personal skills including be positive and confident in front of people. I have struggled with this kind of problems since I was a kid. I always try to avoid the presentation task by doing the paperwork. So, this personal skill has become one of my resolutions.

I am trying to find a better way to express myself in POSITIVE thinking. I don't want to stay in NEGATIVE overthinking like before. I try a lot of things to be more productive including journaling. My passion for writing something even on a piece of paper is like curing my boredom. I love to spend myself on writing even though for daily gratitude. I try to collect and reading what types of the journal that I can create for myself. To create these journals, I bought many stationery supplies from Shopee and Tesco. Some of the stationery supplies that I used the most is Faber Castell Click X5 Blue/Black Pen, Coloured Gel Pen, Staedtler Fineliner Pen, Highlighter, Dual Brush Colour Pen and several notebooks.

These notebooks kept my things such as yearly planner, finances, work, household chores, weight loss journey and the important one; agama class. To be more productive and changing to a new person with a better personality. This was the first step to success.

Furthermore, I  have decided to control my food intake and do a little bit of workout seriously. Why? I admitted that I ate a lot this few years by attending many banquets held in school. My weight is gained and my BMI is a little distracted. So, to make it back to the right way. I am correcting my daily routine by adding up workout time and food taken accordingly. Besides, I am going to record my weight loss journey in here Lovely Sunshine to remind me how struggling it is to lose weight. The challenge to lose weight start now. Fighting!

Alhamdulillah. I have passed my job trial when I received my confirmation letter in September 2020. I am officially a government worker as a lab assistant in a high school. This year will have a job rotation between lab assistant to feel the different environment in every form level. As everyone knows, Kuala Lumpur is one of the states that are announced as MCO states. I have been notified by my boss to work from home until 20th January 2021. After that, I am going to work by taking turns to help another lab assistant that handling Form 5 students. So, wish me for the best in work.

There is one more additional resolution to my unaccomplished resolves. I started to involved in business side income after the end of my studies. I started as a dropship of Nurraysa since July 2017. The journey is upside down. The sales of the product are unexpected. Sometimes, you got a buyer. Sometimes, you just need to push an effort more to attract customers. There is an accomplishment in my sales last year due to MCO and HQ Promotional Item. I decided to upgrade my rank from dropship to an agent. Yes. The struggling in business is real. From the moment, I upgraded myself. I give the oath to try my best in business. It failed though. Because I have spent too many to support myself. I get back and try to go slowly no rush in business. There is an improvement in my sales. But still, need to give more effort in it. So, this year is the year that I am going to manage my time in helping myself and others out there.

Lastly, the resolution that I am going to commit this year 2021 is Lovely Sunshine. Its really hard to balance your time with the blog, side income and your main work. Not just that, my unstable emotion these days make it worse. Yeah, personal is hard to keep it in and its affect your surroundings a lot. Last year is my downfall that I am struggling to keep. I still love this blog and love to write like before. The best part is I got my laptop back. I hope this laptop can keep me consistent in writing more posts in the future. For now, I am going to concentrate on healthy and beauty niche because I am trying to heal my skincare problem. But still Lovely Sunshine is a lifestyle blog. So, that's all the 2021 resolutions that I want and will commit to change myself to a better person.

Thank you so much for reading this post. <3

Love,
Mardhiyyah Rosli

RESEPI CHEESEKUT NUTELLA OREO | Hari ini Mya hendak kongsi satu resepi pencuci mulut yang baru Mya buat pada minggu lepas. Pencuci mulut ini adalah yang paling mudah Mya buat apabila menggunakan cream cheese. Sebelum ini, Mya ada membuat entri mengenai Resepi Cheesekut Oreo pada 3 tahun yang lalu. Resepi itu dibuat atas permintaan adik sepupu. Tapi kali ini Mya membuat resepi ini disebabkan Pergerakan Kawalan Pergerakan Bersyarat yang sedang berjalan sehingga 9 November 2020. 

Selain itu, tempat kerja Mya menggunakan jadual bergilir dan Work From Home (WFH) bagi yang tidak bertugas di pejabat. Masa berlalu dengan pantas lebih-lebih apabila tidak melakukan sesuatu selain laporan kerja. Disebabkan itu, Mya ingin membuat pelbagai jenis pencuci mulut bagi mengisi masa lapang. Antaranya ialah Cheesekut Nutella Oreo. Resepi ini hampir sama dengan resepi entri ini. Perbezaannya ialah Mya mengubah sedikit bahan-bahan sebelum ini kerana keluarga mengulas bahawa cheesekut sebelum ini adalah sedikit masin.So, marilah kita lihat resepi untuk Cheesekut Nutella Oreo kali ini.

Resepi Cheesekut Nutella Oreo

Bahan-bahan 

500g Tatura Cream Cheese 
6 sudu besar susu pekat manis
6 sudu besar susu Farm Fresh (Pure Fresh Milk) - Mya masukkan 1/2 cawan supaya kurang masin
2 sudu besar Nutella
biskut Oreo
1 cawan susu Farm Fresh; panaskan dan tidak perlu sampai mendidih
biskut cream crackers; jenama Hup Seng

Cara-cara

Masukkan cream cheese, susu pekat dan 6 sudu besar susu segar ke dalam blender. Mya tambah lagi susu segar sehingga rasanya cukup. Blend sehingga sebati dan berkrim.

Kemudian, asingkan sedikit adunan cheese untuk diblend bersama nutella. 

Masukkan biskut Oreo ke dalam sealable plastic bag. Hancurkan menggunakan rolling pin sehingga menjadi serbuk Oreo.

Tuangkan susu yang telah dipanaskan ke dalam bekas. Celupkan biskut cream crackers ke dalam susu panas. Jangan celup terlalu lama. Nanti biskut lembik.

Kemudian, susun biskut dalam bekas atau loyang. Susun rapat-rapat dan tuangkan adunan cheese dan ratakan. 

Taburkan serbuk Oreo di atas lapisan adunan cheese sebanyak mana yang anda mahu.

Kemudian susun biskut sekali untuk lapisan adunan nutella cheese. Ulang sehingga adunan cheese habis dan lapisan pertama adalah adunan cheese susu seperti gambar di bawah. Dah siap.

Masukkan ke dalam peti ais semalaman. Kemudian, boleh dipotong dan hidangkan.

Dah siap. Ini adalah Cheesekut Nutella Oreo by Mya Rosli. Rasanya sedap dan tidak terlalu manis. Cheesekut sangat berkrim dan yummy. Hanya Mya dan adik Amnan sahaja yang memakannya. Ini adalah resepi pencuci mulut pertama untuk sepanjang PKPB kali ini. Mya masih lagi mencari resepi pencuci mulut yang mudah dibuat. So, nantikan resepi seterusnya. In sha allah, dalam bulan November ini juga.

Sebelum Mya mengundur diri, Mya masih lagi mengarang idea dan draft untuk entri yang sepatutnya dipublish sebelum ini. Jika tiada kekangan masa, Mya akan cuba publish entri ini secara perlahan-lahan dalam menaikkan blog Lovely Sunshine ini semula. Itu sahaja untuk hari. Assalamualaikum.

Lots of LOVE,
Mardhiyyah Rosli

A LONG QUIET HIATUS | What is Hiatus? From my understanding, hiatus is about not doing anything that we used to for a long time. It is not a long time actually for me. Just a word that suits my temporary condition.

 

According to Little Oxford English Dictionary, Hiatus is a pause or a gap in a series or sequences.

As I said it was temporary because many thing happened through out this year including Movement Control Order that begins early this March. This MCO put a lot of us including me struggle to survive this kind of situation. MCO were happened and still happen in here due to higher cases of Covid 19. The struggling that we most had are mentally and economic. People are struggling to maintain their economy, studies, career even private life.

During these days, I barely show up myself because I have fall to a very deep hole. This order affect my mental badly. I don’t have stable emotions to think straight and positive. I felt so lonely that I preferred to be left alone. I don’t want to think and share anything the problems I had with anyone. I tried many times to be positive but I always got the negatives instead. It is very hard to stay away from overthinking. I kept blaming myself over the thing happened when I was a student. I failed to make me people proud of me. 

Blaming myself is the easiest way to run from this small world. I don’t know why people are making distance with me. It is because I don’t understand they want or something that I have done wrongly. These kind of question always wandering in my mind. So I try to focus more on what I love to do including blogging.

I have post many new recipes I tried during first MCO. It includes my other hobby; baking. I used to baked a lot before I got my fixed job. I always learn and try the desserts recipes by looking on Pinterest. I still do watching short videos how to make simple desserts. Of course, the one that I like most. I really missed the moment where I got up early to make egg tarts. The only dessert I do best. So, I take an initiative to start it again from scratch.

After that, the loneliness hit me very hard. I do have friends but a close one. I got none. So, to ease my loneliness, I download a game, MMORPG games. The games are called Laplace M. In this game, I gained new friends, fun and happiness. But sometimes, the game alone didn't enough to fill my loneliness. Besides, I also watched a lot of K-dramas and anime to curb it. 

A lots of things that I have left behind while struggling to be positive. Blog, Nurraysa even a piece of my life. I love to write and read but this feeling make me stop from doing anything and everything that comes to my life. I always thought poor my blog, I left it without update any entry. Even though, I got a lot of ideas and draft waiting in my dashboard. I don't know how to handle my stress. I can’t control it like I want. Sometimes, I want to run away from all my problems that surfaced.  I got stuck at one place all of my life. Just one mistake. It costs everything.

So, the conclusion is I am trying to get out from this miserable condition. To heighten my confidence level and faced the problem with courage. Not just that, I will try my best to be in POSITIVE auras. Staying away from negatives especially the depression. I hope I can discipline myself by controlling my emotional  and stress. Lets hope the best. Fighting!

Lots of LOVE,
Mardhiyyah Rosli